Hey people, look I’m not dead, Woooooo party. Lately I have just been having the worst time. College is ok it really really hard to juggle all the homework. It’s killing my brain I feel like a mess, but if I lighten the lode then I don’t feel like I’m doing enough. My younger sister is away up really late doing homework, and she in all honors. So she always stressed but mom and dad parses her. Then again she going to be the one to really make it, me and my stupid butt will never amount to anything manger. I have been trying not to say any thing cause, I don’t wont to sound like I’m on some king of pity train, but lately thing have been getting worse. My younger sister is in all honors classes and I cant even take three College classes with out being over whelmed and when I’m not over whelmed I’m a slacker and a good for nothing. I hate complaining so most of them time I just grin and bare it but things are just too much now. I grades a mediocre, I really don’t thing any at school likes me. I think they all just put up with me, I know for some reason this girl Nicole hates my guts, which I don’t see how I have never done anything to her. My mom isn’t really making it better, now don’t get me wrong I love my mom more then anything it just I can never seem to do enough I feel like I’m bending over backwards for her , just to have her kick my legs out from under me and tell me that I need to be doing back flips. I also would like to drop a class but I know I could never tell her , I’m not failing but the workload is to much and I feel I could be doing better at that class it I did have two other big classes with it. Even though this is all bad the worst thing is that I can’t draw I haven’t drawn anything in a months, I’m always to busy with home work and when its not homework it house work. When I filially get time I’m ether to tired, too stressed, out with friends, or just can’t seem to draw. *sighs * I feel a little better now that I vented. I would have rather vented through drawing but I just don’t have the time any more.

P.S plz note that I am venting I am not complaining about my life and if anyone even so much as tries to hint at me being some kind of emo I will stab you with a fork.